this is what i call forgetting.

hey. seriously i really hope you two are reading this.
hahaha. since im ignoring both of you its a bliss for me (:
cause ignorance is a bliss.
well, replacing me just made two of you look horrible.
maybe thats what im thinking. well too bad. its my thoughts.
let me think my way.
all i have to say is. when im gone. i'll be gladly to leave. (:
cause have you people is just making me wonder and more stress.
maybe you should put your huge egos and ask yourself.
or maybe should just keep quite and ask me.
i'll be happier to say it in you fucking face. owh yeah (:

well thats all for now. hope have you annoying life well it last.

p/s. pavilion is like so not my place. but yet everyday im there =/ and i love you sayang! (:

words

bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh!
haihhh.
currently stress with my family.
guessing my love just went to bed.
well, i need to let it out somehow. hmmmm

well, lately she's being really stinge. i like come on.
im your freaking son! tuh pon nak kedekut.
last time. you asked me to choose between you or dad.
i choose you. everything was going great when i found out that, everything was the same.
being blame for everything. when it not even my fault.
saying im wrong and stupid for everything that i did right.
scream at me when it was all them who started first.

i was sick of that. some more it was on my 17th birthday. my freaking SPM year.
i ran out. making my decision as a man. moving to live a better life.
you keep pressuring them to ask me to stay here.
you threaten me. you promise me A LOT of things.

you said that, if you stay here.
i have my siblings. which we'll get in that later.
i have all of this luxury and all.

in the end what i got is the same.
i got bullied, scream, blame, and for pain full.
what do you want from me.
you told me to study here. i did.
i sacrifice everything. all im asking just to take care me properly.
in some of my own term. you gave me the promise.
make it happen.='/

my siblings its another problem.
the other day was my brother birthday.
he had plan to go out for dinner.
i was thinking. why should i?
when the grow up.
they had parties. and all
i had more misery. and even more.
and now his mad cause i ruin his plans.
like you never ever ruin my dreams uh?
i could being better by now!
owh, all my blood lost and blood vomiting and blood cough.
was cause by you, remembered when i was small.
you slam one whole box full of DVR tape on my head.
its the cause. thanks. 

i dont know what to do.
i need to go out and be free.
independent. but by doing this.
i might be postponing my studies.
i miss studying. =/

monday

well lets see, things are going crazy. like seriously.
i have no idea at the moment what to blog. hmmm

HAS was awesome i guess. did the thing that i've always wanted. weeee

Charity dinner i look good. hahha

owh and its 19 more days till you know what.
15 more days till paramore.
and also you know what. hahaha

p/s. missing my friends. and everyone =/ wish i dont have problems with them.

haters.

gaaaah. I have haters and lovers. not to forget those stalkers which makes me amused every time =D
you people are the reason why I laugh. hahaha. random fact.

hhahaha. last night I went out for movie. like alone. funny uh?
yes I know. but sitting in a huge room with big screen and two large drinks of coke just made it better.
today i felt smiling again. but how long will it last?
well, whatever it is I'm smiling again.

owh owh, one thing that doesn't amused me at all.
when your pissed, I'm the victim.
when I have no idea of things, and then i asked. you'll get pissed.
you people think I'm you fucking punching bag is it?
no more I guess. once you get mad at me for stupid reasons.
I'll do things that will make you more hard to control on the situation your having.
owh yeah!

p/s. stalkers amuse me. but yet sometimes, they annoyed me. most of all they creep me out. and yet I still love them =D

make it short

it has been 18 days I left my blog.
Stalkers a complaining. haha my baaad.

Raya pictures has posted on facebook. thanks abg man!
facebook have been really quite. hmmm
but people are getting alot of hint I guess. I mean a lot of it! owh yeah!

raya was okaay. somehow i manage to get rich.
then again, sometime i just need to care.
why must I always care! this is bad! =/

its has been a month now. gaaah. I can believe but yet its true.
I love you! heee
maybe I should not let her a secret anymore uh?
its time to tell. heee.

p/s. thanks for the Paramore tickets. I'm so gonna do something better.

smooth

seriously, something is off with me at the moment.
was trying to figure out whether I miss her that much.
or must it be the season i got pissed again and again and again.
who would be next to disturb me =/
not good.

suddenly from cranky to sleepy to full with food then went to crazy end up hyper now pissed.
what the hell. seriously.
guessing doesn't have to do with her. haihh.

OMFG! damn. now I fucking know why.
is the freaking Raya. shall we go to the past?
hahaha. this is the time where we get school holidays
now? I have to work for fucking full shift for the next 6 days! hell!
this is where my mom would invited me(or I keep bugging her) to bake cakes and cookies.
honey cornflakes last time was like 6 or more tins full. now? less kot.
this year tak buat lagi kot. hmmmm. and raya is like 4 more days.
this is the time where we all started to pack to go balik kampung together.
Roadtrip. now? nomore kampung =/
no more roadtrip.
there's more. but I'll let it all out slowly.

to be honest I miss the past.
everything. everysingle fucking things!
gaaaah. raya? not good. =/

I'm messed up again. thats not good.

p/s.2 more fucking days! horaaaay! =D

sleeep

currently I'm getting bored of this.
have no idea what I'm bored of anyways. hahaha
well ramdahan started few weeks backs and its another 5 more days till Raya.
I mean come on! its Raya. not feeling it uh? haha. must be the past then.

let's move on.
this year I have to work will Raya. like damn.
6 straight days of working full shift. hell no =/

still figuring if i want to do open house this year.
cause like my mom I'm working got no time and all.
I'll find my time.

gaaah! I'm rcrapping. I have no idea what I"m walking about. ahahaha
chow people! =/

p/s. can't wait for wednesday. =D